There is currently no ‘glow’

just crying in bed wishing I would stop feeling so awful and nothing can cure it.

or so I believed.

The only thing that actually makes me feel better currently is playing on the PlayStation and the occasional cracker. maybe it’s a psychological thing? in the game I’m not pregnant that can’t stand the smell of anything instead I’m a character who is a badass.

Things I’m already sick of hearing;

‘oh it’s your first’

‘was it planned?’

‘you’re so young’

‘how are you going to lose the weight after?’

‘when are you going to get a job’

thank you for stating the obvious to me, as if I didn’t know, today is just a rant more than anything. I will admit the only upside so far is having boobs, never had them before what do they do?!

the thought of putting on makeup and going outside is a dread, Christmas markets smell, onions and meat. one of the many things I hate right now.

However I have a confession, I have refused the pre-assessment blood tests these include

infections diseases – (HIV, AIDS,)

one because of the area I live in, (how odd)

This was meant to be posted a couple of days ago, but I forgot all about it, (too early to blame baby brain? Next midwife appt is at 16 weeks. February what a long time away. and I don’t even know when my 12-week scan is! or who books it or anything, so far I know 0% of what to do during this pregnancy #pregnancyforrookies should be the title of my book